This and “The Little Gold Colt” are the only two personal essays I’ve had published. They take a lot out of me, and I have great respect for nonfiction writers such as Roxane Gay, Barry Lopez, Annie Dillard, and Lauren Hough who write stunning essays and books from life. I’d much rather live in my own fantasy world when writing. But this one meant a lot to me. I didn’t “grow up” online, but I’ve been in front of a screen since I was ten or so, from programming my Atari 800, to Bulletin Board Systems on an early PC, to Usenet and UNIX. Forums, chatrooms, and MUDs, Multi-User Dungeons, an early form of Massive Multiplayer Roleplaying Games, were where I found who I really am, and the multifaceted aspects of my identity. I largely share these in my writing, and that was honed by exploring my other personae online… as this essay reveals. You can buy a copy of